1
She'd wanted a change. She'd had something simple in mind.
A new hairdo or maybe a new costume. Not this. Never
this, in fact. This had never entered the realm of her mind.
It hadn't even entered the realm that waited outside of the
realm of her mind. Or any other realm that might lie before that one. Ms. Ororo Munroe received the shock
of her life -- and the shock of many others, come to think of it,
but it was even more shocking for her. Forgive the redundancy with the word
'shocked'. I felt it warranted. But now, on to our show... All she could remember was a blinding
flare of light. That's it. Oh! And the part about the battle. Yes,
she was fairly sure about that part. All things such as these -- and
such things that aren't at all like this -- began with a battle. She
hadn't been at home when this occurred -- she'd been out. She'd been
in uniform. And she had the vague impression she'd been angry. And
injured, too. Well, the injured part she wasn't too
vague on. Actually, she was very certain of that fact. And
that was in no small amount due to the fact that she'd awakened in
the medlab. "Um...Ororo? Can you hear me?" She recognized that voice, though not
at first. It seemed so far away. She waited until her subconscious
saw fit to give her back to consciousness -- but she didn't do so
patiently. "Ororo? Ororo, can you -- " "Y-yes. I believe I...can..?"
Goddess! Was that me?! The voice that had answered Beast,
the resident mutant doctor and overly fuzzy genius, had not been her
voice. Instead of a feminine, sonorous tone with more than a hit of
regal flavor, she'd heard a male sonorous tone, with more than
a hint of regal flavor. Something was decidedly wrong. She opened her eyes to what seemed
to be glaring white pokers of light to her cat-like eyes. Blinking
back the assault, she forced herself to focus upon the ceiling. "How...how do you feel?"
Beast asked her. She reached up to touch her throat,
her fingertips brushing her collar. "I feel -- " Again,
that voice rang in her ears. Not that it wasn't attractive -- it just
bothered her a bit that it spoke whenever she tried to and quite easily
and thoroughly blotted out her own. "Who is -- what the -- oh
my..." "Ororo, I would ask you to remain
calm." Remain calm? Didn't doctors only say
that when you should, in reality, be panicking? She turned her head to his, her slightly
anxious eyes peering into those embedded in Hank's head. "What..."
She cleared her throat. "What..." No luck. "Take it easy, chere." That other voice eased her the moment
she detected it, but there was something in the undertone of it. Something
that was...off. "Who is that?" she
finally had to ask, whether she was being drowned out or not. Remy moved into her line of vision.
"Don't talk jus' yet, chere." He looked as appeasing as
his voice sounded. "Why not -- who is that?"
she repeated. He glanced away from her to Hank. There
was no denying that anything was wrong now. "What is it?" she demanded
-- her voice lost to that deep voice -- albeit a sexy voice -- but
one that was rapidly becoming annoying. Remy cleared his throat. "Dere...dere
was a, uh -- " "Remy," Hank interrupted.
"I think it would be best if you waited -- " Gambit shook his shaggy-haired head.
"Non. Gotta know de truf', Hank. Y' know dat." "But she -- " "Y' know it's de right t'ing --
" "Will you please refrain from
speaking as if I am not here -- and whose voice is it that I continue
to hear?!" At this point, the Wind Rider, former
goddess, and most times known to be cool and collected Ororo Munroe
was getting flaming riled up. Hank sighed. "Ororo..." He
glanced to Remy. "There...there is something we have to tell
you." "Of that I am already aware. Would
you please -- " She'd been reaching a hand to her hair when she
paused like that -- and noticed something wrong. Blue eyes went wide
as they'd never done before. For a long moment she was utterly speechless,
shocked into wordlessness. But soon, she found her voice -- or a
voice, at any rate... "By the Bright Lady!" she exclaimed,
all but shrieking. She sat up like a bolt, looking from one hand to
the other to see if it had spread. And it had. "What -- what -- how -- I do not
-- Henry, what has happened to me?!" Hank looked pitiful. It was really
a sad sight, really. Remy's look had to have been the one that took
the cake, however. Regularly so handsome, seeing such an attractive
man with that emotion in those eyes just made things all the
more worse off for being there. "Chere." He spoke when Hank
could not. "It's...it's like dis, okay?" Pausing as she was -- those...hands...held
away from her in a frozen pose -- she listened... Trying to stay calm...
She listened. There had been a battle, yes. They'd
been called out to stop yet another uprising, more trouble caused
by an unruly band of misfit upstarts with something to prove. Of course,
they'd gone to keep the peace. Not surprisingly, a fight ensued. What happened towards the end didn't
usually happen. There had been a woman with a particularly...evil...look
to her. She was like every ad for a misunderstood youth mixed into
one: short, black spiky hair, black leather clothing, piercings, tattoos,
and dark make-up everywhere. And combat boots up to her knees. She
didn't look too stable -- sort of like that chick that played the
leader of the 'pack' in The Craft, the one with the big teeth
and blue eyes...and dark hair, come to think of it. She hung back more than most, cackling
more than anything else -- that is, until she decided to step in.
Her friends were more of a handful than previously expected, and as
a result, the X-Men had half been getting their asses handed to them.
Iceman had been one of the few who'd gotten his complete ass
handed to him, and then some. Down and nearly out, this strange young
lady thought to get her jollies -- By bludgeoning the youngest original
X-Men over the head with a pipe crackling with strange gray
energy. Storm ordered her to stop. She didn't.
On the contrary, she whacked the Iceman good and intended to do more.
Lightening flared up above. The girl flinched, but then onward showed
no signs of intimidation. She lifted her pipe once more. Storm shouted. The girl smirked, lifted a hand coruscating
with the same power she'd bled into the pipe and pointed that hand
at Storm. The intention there couldn't have been clearer. Storm would
get no warning shot. No mercy. Storm lifted her own hand, tried to
give the girl one last chance -- and was rebuffed. The girl blasted
away -- so did Storm. Apparently, the girl had been a bit quicker
to the draw. Lucky there -- for an instant. For, as Storm was blasted,
her powers flared out of her control. In the split seconds that followed
where she was sinking into unconsciousness, her disarming blast became
a boomsmite from Hades. The girl had been turned to little
more than ash. "And me? What...what happened
to me?" she wondered in the here and now. Hank and Remy shared another look.
"Well..." the Arcadian answered. "Dere was dis...strange
t'ing dat happened, chere. Real strange." His dark eyes
dropped to her hands for a moment, then lifted back to her eyes. "Really,
really strange." He winced for his own artlessness and inability
to come up with something better. By then, Ororo had looked back down
the hands that had mysteriously connected themselves to her body --
then caught glimpse of her wrists. Thicker than a woman's, that's
for sure. And hairier, too. And more muscled. The same could be said
of her smooth, chocolate brown forearms -- A sudden realization hit her. Her breath
caught for a moment...then ever so slowly, she lifted her hands. "Uh, chere? Maybe y' shouldn'..."
The former thief knew where this was going, and on glancing to the
man beside him, knew that he'd surmised as much as well. Her hands held perfectly still before
descending. She'd taken a deep breath and knew that something
was different there as it was with her hands and arms, but still,
she was not prepared. For flatness. Not completely flat,
but in comparison? Immensely flat. Her breasts were gone. In their stead were pectoral muscles.
Well-developed, she had to notice, but still not what she wanted.
At least, not on her. These were supposed to belong on the
man of her dreams, only on her when he was on her -- not like
this! Trying not to panic but able to do
only that, her hands frantically searched out the rest of her features.
Fingertips brushed over her face, finding the dimensions more than
off -- then flew down to her covered legs, hoping and praying that
she would not find a mimesis there, too. She ripped away the covers.
Clad in clothing that were not hers, the corresponding set to the
better known 'hospital gown', were her legs. But not her legs. They were
much too long and far too muscled to pass as a woman's lower appendages
-- at least, under normal circumstances. But these were not normal circumstances. No, not normal at all. She began to tremble and shake, unable
to say a word as terror and disbelief took her in its icy grip. She
felt her face crumpling as a ball of what seemed to be sheer agony
rose up in her, searching for release. And it found it. She screamed. The entire mansion shook.
2
Pouring rain, waterfalls, puddles of all shapes and sizes, flowing
water spouts, broken fire hydrants spraying passersby in the streets,
sprinkler systems, aquatic displays and water parks, glass upon glasses
of water -- anything concerning H2O flitted through her mind, pulsing
and raging until it was all she thought she knew. But, the single most image that splashed her dreamscape was a simple
toy -- one of those little things that could be found in a number
of novelty shops across the country of little boys or male cherubs
caught in the supposedly cute act of urinating. There it stood before her, at first small enough to fit on a desk
-- then the size of a water fountain, and even larger still. Once
a small stream flowed -- then an effervescent horizontal geyser. A particularly teasing horizontal geyser. Why that was, she
had no idea -- Until she awoke with harsh light forcing her to squint and one word
in her thoughts. Restroom. She had to go to the bathroom, and IMMEDIATELY -- more than she EVER
had to before, to her knowledge. Instinctively, she sat up without
a care for where she was, because -- to her knowledge -- she already
knew where she was -- or so she thought... In her bedroom where
she usually awoke. Even still, she sat up, swung her legs off the
bed -- Felt...something...somewhere it shouldn't be. What is that? she wondered to herself. She blinked to clear her eyes -- and saw that she was not in her
own room. That would have explained the harsh lighting -- no such
lighting was allowed in her own quarters. More than that, what qualified
as clothing that she felt against her skin was not of the sort she'd
have chosen on her own to wear -- or this she was positive. What she wasn't quite sure of was where she was or why she was there.
She glanced around her -- found the medlab all around. She looked
down at herself -- Breath caught in her chest and throat as she gasped, crystal blue
eyes flying wide open. "By the goddess!" she breathed -- but not in her own voice.
"What -- " There it was again, deep and rasping. Gaping,
she took a few seconds more to look upon herself without speaking.
She opened her hands and looked down at her palms -- masculine palms.
She flexed her own hands and those hands before her moved.
"Bright lady -- " "Ah. You're awake." She looked up at the voice, every ounce of her surprise unschooled
on her face. She saw a bouncing blue Beast not so bouncingly entering
from his office. "H-Henry? He nodded, trying not to appear too amazed by what he saw
on Ororo's face -- the expression, that is... "Yes ... How do
you feel?" he asked. She opened her mouth to speak -- stopped herself from making that
mistake again, and was then hit with something else. Restroom! She had to go to the bathroom. NOW. Her surprise gave way to dismay and disconcertion. She didn't know how to go to the restroom as anything other
than a woman. What was she supposed to do? "Ororo? What is the matter -- besides the obvious?" Her gaze refocused upon Henry -- a male, the only one that
could help her. But could she ask him? Or would she simply do nothing and -- No. Absolutely not! She may not have had her body, but she still had her dignity
and she would NEVER live down the fact that she'd soiled herself simply
because she refused to ask for help. She knew what refusing to seek
aid could do to a person -- she'd experienced it more than once. Today would not be one of those times. She cleared her throat -- and was greeted to a decidedly manly sound.
Sighing, she closed her eyes briefly, then opened them. And then she
tried to speak. "I..." She sighed again. How could she ask? "Yes?" Henry took another step towards her, eyes concerned.
"Is there something I can get you?" She nodded slowly. "A drink of water, perhaps? Something to eat?" She shook her head. "What else -- some sort of medication, perhaps? An aspirin?" She shook her head again, frustration apparent in every aspect of
her new features. "I seem to be unable to think of anything else," he told
her as his eyes fell in contemplation of something else she might
want, then lifted again to hers. "Perhaps if you told
me..?" Ororo blinked. She shook her head. "No?" Henry asked. "No, you aren't going to
tell me?" She nodded in the affirmative, though with a bit of reluctance. He blinked. "Ah. So, am I to understand that this will be a
game of charades, then?" She just looked at him, brow furrowing. Then, she motioned to her
mouth. I dare not speak aloud. "You...do not want to speak, is that it? Perhaps because of
your...new voice, yes?" She nodded miserably. "Ah. Well, if you cannot tell me, perhaps you can show
me?" Her eyes went wide as she fervently shook her head, her mass of snow-white
hair thrown to and fro. Henry started a bit at how dead-set she was against a demonstration,
which he would be ashamed to admit, piqued his curiosity. "Well.
Ah...is this something you would qualify as an emergency, perhaps?" Ororo nodded in all her circumstance's urgency, suddenly a diffident
squirming mass on top of the medlab bed. Henry arched an eyebrow, slowly nodding in comprehension. "You
have to go to the restroom -- that's it, isn't it?" Ororo averted her eyes, nodding slightly in embarrassment. Henry smirked as if he'd deduced the answer by plucking it from her
very thoughts. "Well, all you have to do is go, Ororo, really
-- " Then, he paused. "Wait." He blushed beneath his
fur. "You..." He looked at her again as if seeing her for
the first time, and it was almost as if he were. "I...I
realize now the, um, dilemma you face. Hmph." He scratched his
fuzzy chin. "You...require instruction." How could that
have escaped me? Perhaps it had something to do with the effeminate
gestures Ororo still displayed, and rather overtly, too... Could this possibly get any worse? Ororo wondered. "Uh...hey theyah, sugah." Ororo paled, gulped, then slowly turned, eyes a bit too wide for
her own tastes. Standing in the doorway was Rogue, accompanied by
Remy LeBeau. Why did I even ask? Flushing, Ororo turned away without answering,
heart thumping and hot shame washing over her. Remy cleared his throat. "Uh...Rogue, she wan'ed ta see how
ya was doin'. T'ought I'd bring 'er by." I wish you had not. The Cajun man came further into the room, pulling Rogue by a gloved
hand. She skipped a step, nearly tripping -- she had been that distracted.
He turned and blinked at her, finding her blushing and dropping her
eyes as she brushed a strand of auburn hair behind her ear. "Uh, ahem, sorry, Cajun." Her lips were turned up
a little, well, guiltily, he thought, but not an altogether
guiltiness, however. His eyes narrowed just so -- then he turned back to Ororo, then back
to Rogue, studying her for a brief moment. Then his own eyes widened,
though barely perceivably so. Saints! Rogue, she was checkin' Stormy out! Clearing his throat softly, he pretended he hadn't noticed, which
wasn't as easy as it could've -- or should've -- been. Turning
back to Ororo, he found her trembling a bit. "Wha's wrong, chere?" he asked as he came closer. Ororo
did not move to respond. He looked to Henry McCoy of answer. "S'goin'
on 'ere?" The furry azure doctor glanced at Rogue first, then drew his similarly
blue eyes back to Remy's red on black ones. "It...is a personal
matter, Remy," he answered evenly. "Ah. Remy not 'posed ta know, eh?" "Actually..?" He looked away from the Acadian to Ororo.
"You might be just what we need." Remy's brow quirked up. "Oui?" After coaxing Ororo out of the bed -- which required Henry to ask
Rogue to turn her back, though Ororo would never admit to that measure
being of her own request -- Remy led her to the bathroom. Moving once
more like a stumbling newborn out in the wild -- or so she felt --
she made her way to the restroom, with only Remy accompanying
her. As her best friend, Hank surmised it would be easier to face
with him rather than himself, even if he were her physician. The younger man had been apprised of the situation via a succinct
whisper that Rogue wished she'd been a part of and might have gotten
a kick out of. But she wasn't allowed in on it. Absolutely not. Remy had blinked at Hank several times before a chuckle tried to
rise up his throat -- which he promptly stifled. Then, realizing the
severity of the situation, he sobered even further. This couldn't
be easy at all on Ororo and the least he could do was not laugh
-- or look too obviously aware of how much like a woman Ororo still
moved while in her male body. At the juncture between the men's and ladies rooms, Ororo stood puzzled. "Dis way," Remy told her, pushing open the door. Ororo only blinked at him as if he were partially relieved of his
faculties. Surely she could not go in there. Remy smiled. "S'okay, 'Ro. Nobody gone arrest ya if ya go in,
ya know." Ororo nearly glowered at him. He resisted in making a joke about how she had all the equipment
that would grant her automatic entry now. "Ya comin'?" he
asked casually as he turned and went in, trying not to make as much
fuss about it, thereby soothing Ororo into a more expeditious compliance. She stood there for a moment, contemplating. She really didn't want
to go in -- she'd had a whiff or two of a male restroom before and
for some reason, had the distinct impression that it was only by luck
alone that she hadn't been assaulted by -- and stumbling back from
-- the stench of urine already. But, this was the mansion and part of the lab -- of course it would
be clean at all times. And more than that? She really had to go! Resolutely, she walked to the door and took a step in...and then
another. She found Remy waiting for her around the corner. In front of a urinal. "Dat's right," he told her. "C'mon in." At least it was as clean as she'd thought it'd be... She swallowed over a lump in throat before she took yet another step,
the tile cooling the bottom of her feet as she stared at the sparkling
white thing. There was no stall, just a line of those things
along the wall, four in all, separated by partitions so that one had
some semblance of privacy. She's seen a urinal before, but not quite in this light before. No
longer just a sight caught in a passing glance, she was now full on
paying attention to them, forcing them to hold some meaning to her.
And now, she had to learn to use one of them. And in a hurry, too. "C'mon over here and do like I do, neh?" Glancing at Remy, she approached the porcelain object, mimicking
his movements so quickly only because of the crisis that was the impending
draining of her bladder that would occur with or without her cooperation.
Her hands balled and unballed at her sides. "Okay, now, uh, ya gone need ta, uh...gain access," he
delicately put it, putting on a commiserating look. She just stared at him a moment. Gain access?! "Ya know wha' I mean," he said next, this time apologetic. Ororo blinked at him...then slowly dropped her eyes, almost stealthily,
as if the movement of her eyes could actually be heard by the
wrong party. She wore not a gown, but a two piece set -- bottoms and a top made
of the same material, perhaps due to Henry's foresight that somehow
eluded even him as to the needs of 'access' that Ororo might
have later. It just wouldn't due to have to do this in a gown,
now would it? A gown. A two-piece set. Neither which she owned herself before this
time. She hadn't arrived in the lab with that outfit on. Someone had placed
it on her -- Hank had. Hank, who'd...seen her...naked. He'd seen...that
-- the 'wrong party'. And what must she have looked like in the remains of her costume
in the body of a man?! Sweet, Goddess... She was mortified. When she hesitated far too long for his tastes, Remy asked, "Pro'lem,
chere?" She didn't answer -- didn't even look up at him. She just stood there...gazing
off into nothing, brow pulled together and lips slightly parted in
one of the most pathetic looks he'd yet to see on her. "Uh," he scratched his head. "It ain't gon' bite ya,
chere." She blinked herself out of her stupor and glanced at Remy quickly,
not so sure that he knew that for sure or not. "It's part o' ya -- might not always seem dat way --
but it is," he assured her. Being that he was her best friend, she trusted him. But, being
as she was also a man now, she wasn't so sure that she could
be sure of anything. "I can only guess wha' dis gone be like, but look at it dis
way: if ya don' do dis soon, dere gone be a mess, and no matter who
ya are now, male o' female, god o' goddess, ya ain't go have
dat -- you wettin' ya'self, now are ya?" Certainly not. "Now, s'gone be strange, I know, since ya ain't ne'er -- well,
far be it from me ta assume dat ya ain't ne'er touched one -- "
The look she gave him next, a mixture of incredulity and exasperation
shut him up quickly. He grinned cheekily and apologetically, and brought
his hands up in abdication. "Sorry. Sorry. Shouldn'a said dat.
Know it already." In his mind, he flashed back to Bruce Willis
in The Fifth Element when what's-her-face pulled the gun on
him for kissing her. He could have sworn he saw thunder flash in Ororo's eyes. "Ya know," he said, looking up into her eyes, "dat
'minds me. How ya powers doin', chere?" She blinked at him, her ire draining from her face. I...I do not
know. When she'd awakened, she had no sense of them to the point where
she'd forgotten she even had them. Her need to relieve herself
was put off by her inner search for that presence, that inward detection
of her birthright. "Second t'ought, chere?" Remy said when he saw the level
of concentration brewing on Ororo's face. "We t'ink 'bout dat
later. Ya need ta go, right?" She refocused back on him. Yes. I do. My powers can be put off
for the time being. "'Kay. Do like I do, 'kay?" She nodded. "Now, ya standin' like I am. All ya gotta do now, is...well,
ya know, uh..." He scratched his face just below his right sideburn,
then he motioned in the air in a roundabout fashion. She understood. She glanced back down to her waistband. IT was underneath there --
the thing that truly made her no longer a woman. The 'wrong party'. She had a penis now. To say that it was disconcerting was an understatement of proportions
so massive, the mere hint of it could probably level a building. She swallowed, feeling a cold and greasy fear seeping from her breast
-- she no longer had breasts, either, by the by -- and a trickle
of the same fell down her back. Damn it, Ororo! Do this or face the consequences! Heart beginning to pound, she took hold of her waistband between
masculine fingertips. She took a few breaths, preparing herself, swallowed
over a lump, took in yet another breath, held it -- pulled the draw-stringed
waistband from the well-muscled belly she now had revealed by the
raising of her shirt. Her pubic hair did not notably startle her -- it was the same as
it always was, were one to go into such details. No, it wasn't that
-- it was what was underneath, that which she slowly revealed by tilting
her head back from the overhead lighting and her pelvis -- her now
masculine pelvis -- up for a better view. She felt her breath coming faster and faster -- like she was an easily
frightened teeny-bopper at the first showing of Scream, or
some other child with a fear of heights trying to overcome that phobia
by jumping on the nearest and largest roller coaster she could find. And then...there it was. It wasn't as if she had never seen one before, because she had, and
on several occasions, the least of which being the fact that in the
village she had called home for a time, its people frequently went
half-naked. She'd seen her share. But this was different. It was from the WRONG angle. She thought that she would gasp on sight of it actually attached
to her body -- but she didn't. Oh, no. On the contrary, her eyebrows perked up without her knowledge of
the occurrence, and the fingertips of one hand lifted her lips, also
without her knowledge -- she was so absorbed. "Oh, my," she breathed instead of "By the Bright Lady!" It...it...was big. Even flaccid, it was magnificent! And it was hers!
HERS! And she could not believe herself! This was not how she should have been behaving -- marveling at the
size of herself like some other actual male. She should be
revolted, disgusted, at the very least bewildered -- not proud.
Not egotistically lifted by the knowledge that she as a male had something
to brag about -- and a BIG something, too! "Uh, chere? Why ya look like dat?" Remy asked her after
another long pause. She blinked up at him. "Excuse me?" Still too dazed,
she failed to notice that she'd spoken aloud. "Ya look like de cat dat found de one fat mouse with de limp." "What?" "Chere, if ya wuhn't so shocked, ya'd be grinnin', dat's wha'.
Wha's so..." He stopped. And stared for a sec. Blinked. How could
he have been so dense? Of course he knew what it was! And he was the one that
was shocked... "So. Like wha' ya see, neh?" he asked instead, putting
on a wry smile. She cleared her throat, blushing as she looked away, that self-satisfied
look gone. "Don' be 'shamed, chere. Only nat'ral -- bit soon...but
nat'ral." He chuckled. "But dat ain't the point," he
hurriedly added when he'd realized he should have just kept the humor
to himself. "Jus' make it dat much easier ta deal wit'. Now dat
ya seen it and ya over dat part, now come de hard part -- no pun intended." She turned and glared this time. "Oops. Okay. No more jokes. Promise." He even crossed his
heart, smiling that 'please don't kill me' smile of his. She gave him a look that said, 'let's just get this over with'. He cleared his throat. "Now. Take hold o' it, 'kay?" She just looked down at herself for a moment. "Uh, chere? Don' get lost on me 'gain, 'kay?" Blushing yet again, she lightly shook her head, removing all yearning
to conceitedly gaze upon herself from her thoughts. "Damn, chere, ya worse den Remy -- know dat?" He shook
his own head, feigning irritation. "Let us finish this," she hissed, loud enough to be heard,
but not quite loud enough to blatantly announce her new male tones. "True, do'," he muttered. "'Kay, now. Gon' be serious.
Now, jus' stand up straight." She was already doing that. "Ya gotta take hold o' it so's ya can control it. Can't do it
wit' no hands wit'out experience." She sighed. "I hurryin', I hurryin'. Relax. Now, ya, uh, got 'im?"
he asked, trying to be sensitive to the situation. Okay. She had to actually touch it now. Looking was one thing
-- touching was quite another. This -- tactual confirmation
-- would make it all the more real even if she could already
see that it was indeed there and attached, her very own -- and impressive,
she couldn't resist tacking on -- manhood. "Now, ya ain't gotta strangle 'im -- dat's somet'ing diff'rent." She nearly paled when she looked at him next. "Aiight, aiight. Now I 'fficially stop de jokes. Promise
and double swear." "One more, Remy LeBeau -- just one more and I will blast you
to the ends of the earth," she threatened in a low growl that
was barely audible, but came in loud and clear to the slightly rattled
Cajun man and former thief to her right. "Right," he agreed quickly. "Ahem. 'Kay. Got
'im?" She looked away, trying to calm that irrational thump of the organ
in her chest as she slowly reached down... Do not panic, Ororo.
It...it is a part of you as Remy said. It...it will not bite. Calm
yourself -- by the Gods, I would rather be trapped in an airtight
box than deal with this! Her hand slowly closed over warm, smooth flesh -- She gasped at the sensation of touch -- gasped where Remy could hear
her, and thus turn to see her stunned face and how she was no longer
standing all the way straight. "Oh, uh...shoulda warned ya, chere. Sensitive place dat is,
ya know -- now," he added. She couldn't turn to him just yet, not when she felt so ashamed,
but she glowered just the same, making sure he saw that more than
anything else. "Ya get used ta it, chere. Promise. Jus' try ta focus on de
fact dat ya really gotta go, 'kay?" Actually, it wasn't all that difficult. The second he mentioned it,
she remembered what it was that had her playing guessing games with
Hank what seemed like eons ago. She straightened once more, no longer partially hunched over, and
removed the hand she had braced against the urinal. "Ya ready?" he asked. She nodded, though a bit unsurely. "Now, don' jump de gun, 'kay? Gotta control it. Dis one o' de
few times ya can', 'kay? Dat wuhn't a joke by de way -- actual fact." Ororo nodded. "Now, ya gotta ease into it, aiight? Don' wanna make a mess."
He turned to see just how close she was to the amenity. "Don'
stand too close. Don' wanna get ya'self -- o' melt de cake." 'What?' was the expression she gave him next. He pointed to the white cake-like thing in the urinal. "De cake
dat keep de t'ing fresh. Ya pee on it and it melt. Some boys do it
fo' fun -- but Remy don' t'ink you'd be de type ta enjoy not'ing like
dat," he added almost sheepishly. With a frown, Ororo took a half step back, preferring not to comment. "Jus' like dat. Perfect. Now, like I said, go slow. Aim where
ya wan' it ta go and let it out in a nice calm stream, 'kay?" Ororo concentrated on doing as he said, trying to discern the inner
differences in how it felt to 'hold it in' as a woman and now as a
man. Then deciding that that might take too much time, she went on
instinct, feeling how to allow the passageways to open and to close
and hoping that she did not indeed make a mess. She took a deep breath...and let 'er rip, as they say -- Then, petrified as an ODD sensation rippled through her...down below.
Pulse now racing, her eyes flew open, though that particular
reaction was being slowed by her high held dignity -- and only that
reaction. But the other? It wasn't listening. Oh, no -- not that one. She tried not to hallo as her still new genitalia began to stiffen
before her eyes, instead moaning breathlessly, teeth clenching. Shaky
on her feet, aiming was now more than a bit difficult. Filled with
a heat that manifested itself outwardly as a layer of maroon upon
her dark skin, she hurriedly tried to force the thing to _go_back_down_. And it wouldn't listen! It just made it all the more insistent on standing high and proud!
Like the spear of a mighty warrior from her native homeland that would
not be broken...or brought down. Just as Remy had indicated it would
-- not exactly, but similarly, nonetheless! Goddess, NO! St-stay down! Sit! SIT! Bright Lady, it's not a dog,
Ororo! But it was behaving like one -- like a naughty puppy. "Uh, chere? Chere?" She couldn't answer him -- she barely heard him. But when he repeated
himself, a twisted, psychotic, and overly masochistic part of herself
just had to acknowledge Remy to make this moment just as BAD
as it could possibly get. Then, suddenly, she was twisting away from him, blocking from view
her embarrassment, for lack of a better phrasing, clenching back an
audible sound and trying not to panic. At least, not anymore than she already was. All but gasping, she glanced down to find herself fully erect. FULLY. For a sweet, beautiful second, she was captured by an awe that took
her breath away even more than it had already been stolen -- almost
completely enraptured by the powerful sight of herself staring back
-- Then she came to her senses once again. Goddess, why NOW?! It wasn't like she'd been a man for all
that long, was it? "'Ro? Wha's de matter?" Remy blinked at his long-time friend,
wondering what it could be that sparked her abrupt inability to go
through with this. She did have to go, didn't she? "Chere,
speak ta me." But she couldn't do that. Not at a time like this -- she couldn't
let him see. Not this. What -- what am I supposed
to do?! Narrowing his eyes thoughtfully, Remy turned towards the form that
was now that which physically represented Ororo Munroe. "'Ro?
Answer me. Wha's wrong?" Not answering, she pressed her palm against the cool surface of the
wall, then slowly rested her temple against it, too, trying to calm
herself and her erratic breathing. I -- I just have to calm myself.
Just be calm... Calm -- damn it all! Why aren't I calming?! Meanwhile, Remy cocked his head to one side a bit as he took in Ororo's
new posture, how she was now hiding from him... Wha' de
hell coul' be makin' her do dat-- Blinking, he nearly smacked himself in the head as he was struck
with sudden insight -- And then he facepalmed. "Merde," he muttered, shaking his head with a deep, suffering
sigh. "Almos' made it, too..." When they emerged some time later, Hank and Rogue were talking quietly,
which halted when they noticed they weren't alone. Both looked up
to see Remy and Ororo standing side by side, Ororo a bit taller than
Remy now -- though not due to what she'd just gone through... Rogue wasn't quite able to take her eyes completely away from Ororo.
Despite how off she looked due to the fact that she was dealing with
the repercussions of being a man, which were disconcerting -- something
Rogue knew well enough, though not so permanently -- and the fact
that Ororo had truly been a woman the other day, Rogue could not help
but be...attracted. Ororo was gorgeous, male or female. "Did everything come out okay?" Hank asked before his hand
could get the chance to clamp over his mouth and beat his foot in
getting there. His foot won out. Ororo's brow furrowed as she strained to keep her dignity about her. "Ev'ryt'ing be fine, Hank," Remy answered quickly, glancing
up at Ororo -- and nearly grimacing. "Ahem. Good. Very good." Ororo went back to her bed, walking a bit easier now that she'd been
on her feet for a few moments...and had overcome her slight...misadventure.
When she got there, she paused -- then turned to Henry. She cleared her throat before speaking and averted her eyes so that
she wouldn't have to see what was in Henry's as she spoke. "I
wish...to return to my room," she told him quietly. "At this time, I do not feel that it is wise for you to -- " "Is there something you can do for me that you have neglected
to mention?" she asked, looking at him now, her need to be away
from that sterile place crowding out whatever hesitations she had
at looking him in the eye. He gave her a truly rueful look. "No," he answered quietly. "Am I suffering from some injury that demands further treatment?" "No." "Then why must I remain here?" Hank watched her for a moment, saying nothing. He had no reason,
really, other than observation. There was nothing that he could
do for her. "Well, then," she said, gaining her answer from his silence.
"I will be in my room, then." She turned towards the door. Rogue stood there. Pride flushing throughout her, Ororo kept her head high as she moved
in that direction. She nodded in acknowledgement to the young woman
as she moved past her, even if she didn't feel much of that self-regard
inside. Rogue returned that nod -- though she looked to be a bit red in the
cheeks. It was only because she was smiling in that way that she was
that Ororo wasn't offended. She continued on. Remembering something, though, she paused. Half looking over her
shoulder, unable to truly meet his eyes and denouncing herself for
it even at a time such as that one, she said, "Thank you, Remy,
for your assistance." ...If one could call what she'd went through
just previous to finally relieving herself 'assistance'. Remy shrugged easily, though what they'd just went through together
was more than just a little harrowing -- though he wouldn't call a
six-minute recap of what went on last week on All My Children
harrowing, even if Ororo did. Hell, he had fun with it -- she'd
been the only person that could stay in the room with him after three
and a half minutes of it, and he didn't count the fact that she couldn't
have left if she'd wanted to against her. "Dat's wha' friends fo', chere." She nodded, a brief flash of Erica Cain wearing a mask to cover half
her face after an accident of some sort dancing through her mind --
then she beat a not so hasty retreat to her room. For a long moment, there was nothing but pin-dropping silence. It
seemed that no one knew what to say. Not the Cajun whose best friend
and most trusted ally in the whole world was now a man who,
perhaps, was in possession of a possibly preferable penis to his own.
Nor was the puzzled physician whose perplexity could only be penned
by his powerless. But Rogue wasn't quite so speechless. Shaking her head almost wistfully, hands on full hips, she said,
"Ya know what, Cajun? Ah think ya just got knocked outta the
placin' fo' 'Best Ass' around heyah, sugah."
3
Bobby had just ... blinked. He couldn't do much more than that --
not with THIS before him.
It has to be the blow I took to the head -- it just HAS to be.
He told himself this repeatedly, but it failed to make what he saw
before him any less of a reality.
Ororo. Lying there unconscious. Lying there unconscious and no longer
a woman.
I-it can't be, he stammered inside his head. It CAN'T.
The laws of nature just wouldn't allow such a thing to happen -- not
to HER.
But it HAD happened, hadn't it? And he was silent witness to the
fact.
No longer of slender and tone feminine body that had sent a quake
or two through his own body at one time or another, she was now of
slender and tone masculine body...a body that just couldn't
fit into that uniform.
Her musculature expanded out past the material, causing it to rip
and tear in places. As she was longer than before, her now-broad shoulders
had punched through up top as her now-manly feet had below. Where
her chest should have distended outward with her breast now lay a
shallow puddle of fabric that somewhat helped to keep the rest of
the top portion from going the way that her belt had -- which had
snapped and now lay off to the side.
Her foot protruded through her shoes -- HEELS, he said to
himself on a clearer note -- and the arms of her clothing no longer
reached her wrists -- it was as if a dude had snagged one of her uni's
and tried to fit into it -- fitting wrongly everywhere.
But that wasn't the case.
A woman had been in there a few short moments ago, and now in her
place lay a man. A man of wide shoulders and sturdy frame, of strong
chin, now that he looked closer -- a handsome man if he were
to go that far.
He could see that sovereignty that was so much a part of Ororo Munroe
even now -- and a bulge that hadn't been there moments ago.
He wondered if the gathering X-Men would be able to, too.
"Wh-what happened?!" Jean gasped as she landed, her TK
sparking out.
"Where's Ororo?" Scott questioned as he skid to a halt
beside the crouching Iceman.
"And who the hell is that wearin' her uniform?!" Rogue
wondered.
Bobby said nothing, unable to stop staring, his mind whirling.
"Bobby? Bobby?! Answer me!" Scott ordered -- then shot
a look to his wife when he got no answer. "Jean? Is he alright?"
Jean ran a brief scan. "He...he's in shock, I think."
"Bobby!" Remy yelled. "Snap outta it, homme, and tell
us where Stormy is!" Not'ing had better have happened ta 'er,
he thought angrily. And de ice cube ain't helpin'! "Who
IS dis guy?" he wondered, too, about the man in white lying unconscious
before him. For some reason, his usually quick mind failed to recognize
the costume just yet.
Still, Bobby said nothing. It was all TOO incredible to believe.
The beautiful, unreachable, and sadly untouchable goddess, star attraction
in many a wet dreams of many men across the globe...was now a MAN.
"Bobby?" Rogue kneeled down beside the frozen man as she
gently called his name. "Can ya heyah me, sugah?"
Slowly -- ever so slowly -- he turned to look at her at the sound
of her voice. For a long and frightening moment, he was the very picture
of stupefaction. He raised a hand to point at the dark-skinned body
beside him.
"HOLYSHITSHE'SAMAN!" he blurted out, eyes wide.
"WHAT?!" The collective team members exclaimed.
"A MAN! She's a MAN!" he blathered, unable to sound rational.
Oddly enough, he sounded like an extra out of The Wizard of Oz.
"Who's a man?"
"Storm! Storm's a MAN!"
"No, way..."
Bobby turned his head towards a stern looking Remy LeBeau. "SweartagodIsawit!"
"Calm down, sugah, and tell us what ya saw," Rogue said.
"That's what I saw!" he told her, speaking half
as rapidly now as he had been a moment ago. "That girl! She
did it! The one in all the black -- the one that HIT me! Ow!"
He flinched in memory of being wailed over the head with a length
of conduit, massaging his neck and checking for flaws that might make
his transformation back to human more difficult than it would be otherwise.
"What's the mattah?" "Forget about me -- Ororo needs far more help than I do."
He turned his icy eyes back to the fallen co-leader of the X-Men. She'd better turn back to normal before she wakes up...or it's
gonna get ugly. "That's Ororo?!" "Apparently so, Jean," her husband answered, frowning.
"Apparently so." Jean's gaze turned from surprised to perplexed to...almost appreciable
as she looked down at Ororo again. Damn, Ororo, she thought to herself, her husband unable to
hear it. "Bobby, who did this -- where is she?" Bobby paused just then...and straightening slowly, he turned and
pointed -- To a charred spot on the ground a dozen feet away. There was a perfect silence for about ten seconds. "...That's all that's left?" Rogue asked quietly,
gloved fingertips slowly lifting to red lips as she blinked at the
sight before her. Bobby nodded. "Other than some smoking leather over there --
yeah. That's it." He pointed to a black, smoldering remnant of
said leather scrap draped over a piece of plank that jutted out of
the wreckage of the battle site. "Damn," Remy muttered, almost wincing. "Got dat girl,
but good." And Stormy, she ain't gone be likin' dat she took
a life, either -- do', she might not be too upset, considering...
Considering that she was now of the male persuasion. "Let's get her to Hank -- see what he can do for her,"
Scott ordered. "Let's go." When they arrived back at the mansion, Bobby had about three immediate
options. He could go down to the medlab and wait for results on Ororo's
condition, go with Scott to inform the Professor of what had happened,
or he could go and gossip about it with everyone else in the kitchen. Bobby went to his room instead. He really needed the rest, and Hank
told him it'd be okay for him to get some sleep, seeing as he hadn't
quite caught a concussion from his introduction to a certain piece
of pipe earlier that day. "God. I don't think I've ever been this wiped out," he
muttered as he dragged himself up the stairs, not even enough strength
left in him to ice-slide himself up to the second floor and evaporate
the thing once he'd reached his room. It seemed like forever and a week before he was pulling the door
open and stumbling to his bed, yanking off his uniform as he went,
where he lost consciousness before he hit the pillows. He rolled over with a sigh, smacking at the taste in his mouth he'd
acquired after sleep -- which he hated. And it would remain, nagging and mocking him until one of two things
happened: he either fell back asleep -- wherein the nagging taste
would assault him later on, with possibly more of a virulent edge
to it than it'd had before -- or he could wake himself up and do something
about it. Namely, brushing his teeth. He lay where he was, though, for a few moments more. He felt just
a tad bit too groggy to brave a trip to the bathroom -- And then he was 'reminded' of that damned taste in his mouth, so
he forced himself up and out of the bed, eyes less than half-lidded,
but still open enough to make sure he didn't smack into everything
that might be in his way. Yawning, he ran his fingers through disheveled hair, then scratched
at the back of his neck to relieve that 'welcome back to the land
of consciousness' itch he was prone to getting there. At the doorway, he forwent flicking on the light -- no need to assault
his eyes just yet -- instead moving straight over to the toilet. He
needed to go to the bathroom. Casually, as he'd done countless times, he reached down to...make
a grab for the requisite equipment -- And blinked sleepily when he missed. He paused for a moment, just KNOWING that he couldn't have just missed
no matter HOW half-asleep he was... He reached again. And missed. He blinked again, clearing all sleep from his eyes, suddenly very
wide-awake. He grabbed again, this time a little closer. And missed yet again. Slowly, his eyes went wide. And he frantically began to grabble...down there. And STILL didn't find what he was looking for at all despite his
efforts. What the fuck?! In a lightning movement that might've made the resident Cajun proud
-- well, in one perspective or another -- he dropped his head
and eyes and flung his hands away from himself for a full view. Why the hell can't I -- Oh. My. God. It... It... It wasn't there! It was gone! The strangest sound fought its way from between Robert Drake's lips
-- a sound that could never -- EVER -- be described as ANYTHING in
the masculine range of yelps, yips, or yowls. "Wh-where-?! What the -- ?! H-how the -- EEP!" It...it was so FLAT down there... Naturally, he began to panic. His equipment was gone! His plumbing,
necessary accessories, jewels, one-eyed weasel -- it was GONE! And as his boggled mind struggled to process this -- grappled at
the illusion that it might, some day, understand what in the hell
was going on, Bobby Drake realized something else. He hadn't exactly a clear view as he looked down at his misplaced
manhood. There was definite...impediment. Blinking, Bobby drew his eyes up -- slowly, very slowly... He gasped, all air being driven from his lungs as he took a staggering
step back, eyes flying wide open as they never had before -- not even
earlier that day when he'd found Ororo. "AHHHH!" He... He had... He had... Breasts. "What the HELL?!" he breathed hoarsely, this time aloud
-- in more tones that could never -- EVER -- be described as ANYTHING
in the masculine range. Suddenly wildly disoriented, not trusting what he was seeing before
him, he rushed over to the mirror, flipping the light switch -- It can't be -- it just CAN'T be! Light filled the room -- and so thunderstruck was he that the glare
barely registered -- and Bobby found himself in the mirror. Or should that be 'HERself'? In the mirror was NOT Bobby Drake. Bobby just WASN'T that pretty. And Bobby -- though some might argue the fact -- was a MAN. What he found in the mirror most definitely wasn't a man -- unless
that man had had some serious work done. For a long moment, he could do nothing but stare. My. God, swam up in his thoughts from some murky abyss of
incredulity. A slender-fingered hand reached up to touch a face that was totally
unfamiliar to Bobby -- found soft skin waiting, skin softer than he
could remember finding on his own face. Whom he saw in the mirror couldn't quite pass as stunning as several
other women under the roof of 'X' could -- but she was unmistakably
good-looking. Possessing Bobby's soft brown hair and hazel eyes, she also had a
delicate jaw, ears that could be described as nothing less than 'cute',
a nose that seemed to be tailored to her face, an elegant neck -- And a nice rack. Distantly, he thought, Hell. I'd do her. She was, after all, totally attractive. She. As if what he was seeing in the mirror wasn't HIM. Because it was. And he knew the 'why' and the 'how' of it. A certain young, short, darkly clad, tattooed, pierced, blue-eyed,
spiky-haired girl with a certain strange power that had changed Ororo
Munroe into a man. A certain and strange power that had been charged into a length of
pipe -- a pipe that had been brought down over his head. Maybe that had been enough to change him -- maybe a blast of it wasn't
necessary as in Ororo's case -- What am I wasting mind-breath on -- of COURSE it had been enough!
Lookit me! Yeah. Just look. A beautiful woman stared back at him. But from the wrong angle, his mind was so quick to point out. A woman. His eyes fell again -- against his own will. The missing plumbing. He sighed deeply, wistfully -- a whispering moan. No... Not Willie
Shorthairs... I LOVED that guy! And Willie was gone -- To be replaced by a woman's...parts -- and breasts! There's a bright side to this already, Bobbo! Buck up! "A bright side," he murmured aloud -- and was treated to
the sound of his new voice. A woman's voice. It seemed to fit the
face it was given to, though he couldn't precisely describe it. Not
too deep and not too high -- it was just...normal. No detectable accent,
like say, Ororo or Betsy -- or even Jean, what with her originating
on the east coast -- and why would she? Had Bobby an accent? No. Even IF he'd been born and bred in Long Island-or 'Lawn Gisland'
to those with the accent. And would suddenly turning into a woman change that? ...He should hope not. But whether or not he had gained an accent was irrelevant. Either way, he was a still WOMAN now. A woman. What the hell would that mean when he left this bathroom -- his room
-- and others saw him? Suddenly, he could barely breathe. What will my father think?! 'What the-?! You're a WOMAN?! Bobby, how in the hell did you manage
to get yourself turned into a WOMAN?!' He could just see his face... "Holy shit," he breathed, his face a work of perplexity. And mom? 'I always wanted a girl...' seemed to fit pretty well. He didn't know whether to grimace or be...relieved at that
one. "Holy friggin' -- " Who CARES, man?! You've got hooters! Lookit 'em! came a voice
from the inside. And he did. What a set. They weren't all terribly large like a few pairs he could think of
-- but enough to fit in his hands -- technically 'her' hands -- when
he slowly cupped them. "Ooh," he breathed at the sensation of him -- HER -- self
in his -- HER -- hands, a smile spreading across feminine lips. Smooth and supple, he wished that this was a separate woman -- while
at the same time glad it was NOT. It felt great, what he doing. Eyes narrowing just a bit...he uncupped one breast...and reached
for an, as of yet, unresponsive nipple -- was only vaguely surprised
that someone hadn't smacked his hand away and given him an admonishing
look of 'Bad Man! Bad Man, You!' He teased it -- and it soon stood firm. "Ooh!" he breathed a little louder. "Oh, I like THAT,"
he said as he began to grin. Further attention to him -- HER -- self
led to an almost hysterical giggle that echoed throughout the room
to the tune of insetting psychosis. "This is SOOOO cool!" Looking back up into the mirror, Bobby found a nearly lewd smirk
looking back. With a wry twist of now-womanly lips, Bobby began to
turn this way and that, watching the way his new body moved, the shape
of shoulders and collarbone, of hips and firm buttocks -- "I am FINE," he gloated to him -- HER -- self, as toned
muscles played beneath smooth skin and young bosom stood pert. "I
might be able to get used to this." But he still missed Willie. Not only because Willie had been WILLIE -- had always been there,
a very precious part of the male anatomy -- the MOST important, actually
-- almost like a friend -- a friend that went through all his good
and bad times, was nearly always awake moments before him in the morning
as if in greeting of the new day -- But, also because Bobby still had to go to the bathroom. And he wasn't accustomed to sitting unless he had to go number
two. Number one was up for this particular event. And Willie wasn't there to...well, help out, or anything. He'd cut
and run -- or whatever had happened to him while the Iceman slept.
Wherever he was, he wasn't doing anyone any good -- which had been
sort of true of Willie for too long of a while, anyway, Bobby thought
a bit bitterly to himself. Nothing really new on that score, or rather,
lack_there_of. Just me and Willie...and no one else. What a bitch. And now he was a woman -- a woman who'd have NO use for Willie --
at least, not as he had in his former capacity, anyway. He was no longer a 'giver'. He was on the 'receiving' team now, a part of his overworked brain
informed him. "Damn," he muttered as he was hit with that realization. Sex for him was totally changed as he knew it -- if he would ever
know it again. How was he supposed to deal with that? You COULD be a lesbian, ya know... He instantly perked at that. "Hey... I COULD, couldn't I?" That insane grin of his was
coming back... Unknowingly, he rubbed his hands together in anticipation,
as if he had a date already lined up. He'd always wanted in on a session
of that -- two women together. Well, in this body, he had more of
a chance of that happening, right? And as he had the requisite equipment now, he could go into women-designated
places! Ladies rooms, locker rooms -- the communal showers of the
mansion! "Oh, yes!" Yeah, like Ororo would let you anywhere near the showers... "But the ladies at the Bally's wouldn't know a thing, now would
they?" he said evilly to himself. You are bad. Very bad. "You know this, man," he said, in a bad impersonation
of Chris Rock's character out of the movie Friday. But I'm really gonna miss Willie -- miss 'im already. I want 'im
back. It didn't occur to him just yet that he was conducting a conversation
with himself. "We can't have him back -- that girl is dead, and
without her, we probably won't change back. We have to get used to
it -- just like 'Ro is." 'Ro... She's a dude now. She's got equipment now! I'd like to
see the look on her face when she wakes up and realizes -- "Hey! Watch your mouth!" What?! Aren't you waiting to see it, too? "What do you mean, YOU? There's no YOU -- there's only ME." If there's just YOU, then why're you talking to ME? Bobby blinked. Why was he talking to 'him'? I think you're cracking up, man. "Oh, shut up." You gonna make me, WOMAN? "Don't start -- " You're the one that started it -- thinking all disassociatively
and everything. "Dammit, I don't want to argue with you!" Bobby shouted
in his lady's voice. "Uh, 'allo? Who's dat?" Bobby froze. That hadn't been him who had said that. As Bobby has pointed out
himself, earlier, he had no accent. "'Allo?" the voice came again -- a man's voice with a Cajun's
drawl. "Remy," Bobby breathed, instinctively crouching low as
if Remy could see straight through the door with those alien eyes
of his and could possibly spot the naked woman that had been the male
Bobby Drake and was now 'Roberta' Drake, standing in Bobby's bathroom. A knock -- and probably not the first to have been rapped upon the
door during 'Roberta's' discussion with herself -- sounded with impatience. "Bobby? Dat you soundin' like a femme in dere?"
Jokingly, he added, "O' do ya finally got somebody in dere wit'
ya?" He sounded highly doubtful that the answer to that second
part would be in the affirmative. Bobby was simultaneously angered and agreeable with that tone. Hell,
when was the last time he was in the position to have a woman in his
room -- a separate one, that is? A long while. He sighed. You can't let him see us like this! "You think I don't know that?!" he hissed to himself. He might hit on us! "He wouldn't..." This is REMY we're talking about, Drake. "Point. What should we do?" We gotta hide! "Where?" Under the bed, man -- er, girl! Quick! "I am NOT -- " More knocking. "Bobby?" Bobby flew out of the bathroom and back into his bedroom, arms across
his chest in an oddly feminine display, feeling as if Remy's eyes
were already all over him. Now, he knew what it was like for all those
women that hated to be ogled. "Pig," Roberta mumbled tersely. After dropping to the floor
-- the cold, cold floor -- it was quickly decided that that
would not be the best place to hide. But, you LIKE the cold! "Yeah, but, it's still freezing!" he whispered. "I
don't know why!" Well...under the covers! Quick! Roberta was only too happy to comply. "What the hell is up with
my powers, anyway?" he wondered softly. "Bobby? Answer me, homme," Remy said in an annoyed tone. "No can do," Roberta whispered. "I gone come in if ya don', Bobby. Give ya till de count o'
tres, and Remy'll charge de door down." What the hell is his problem?! Why won't he just leave?! "Ya know it's time fo' dinner, nes pas?" Oh. That. "I don' get ya down 'ere, and dey start bitchin' at Remy 'cause
you didn't get none o' de special biscuits." Special biscuits? Roberta sighed. There was no way he was
gonna get out of this without answering -- which he couldn't do with
his present voice. He's gonna break in! "Please don't," Roberta prayed softly. "Just go. Leave.
Eat all you want -- I woulda said something by now if I cared!" "One," Remy began. Oh, shit. "Two." Another strange sound worked itself loose from inside the former
X-MAN. Ex-man. X-Man. Heh. Almost kinda funny. Almost... "Tres. Okay, den. Be dat way." There was a perfect moment of silence where Bobby could almost --
ALMOST -- believe that Remy was walking away, only having been kidding,
and seeing how his bluff had been called, was bowing out gracefully
-- No such luck. NEVER any such luck. The doorknob jiggled three times -- he made no point in being secretive,
for there was simply no need -- and then...the door came open. He'd picked the lock. Just like that. At least he didn't blow it open... Does the guy carry lockpicks everywhere he goes?! Red on black eyes peered inside. "Bobby, wake up. Dinner time." 'Roberta' made not a move, lying flat on her back, hoping to God
that Remy would just believe he was asleep and be gone. Boots tread softly over hardwood floor as he approached. It was like
being inside a horror film with Michael Meyers or Jason -- hiding
and hoping that they couldn't hear your breathing or smell you sweat
or see you shaking beneath the covers; hoping that they'd find no
evidence that you were even there and would just _go_away_. No such luck. NEVER any such luck. The comforter was yanked back -- Revealing a startled woman to Remy LeBeau rather than a disgruntled
Iceman -- an attractive woman, too. He blinked, gathering composure.
"Pardonnez-moi, chere," he said with an apologetic, yet
debonair smile -- and some wonder that not even he could hide
at finding an actual chick there and in Bobby's bed,
no less. And naked, too. "Remy not know Bobby not alone." Roberta could only pull together a faint semblance of a smile --
one where you couldn't believe you were getting away with something
-- wasn't' even sure if you even were, yet -- but were
riding it out for as long as it lasted, hardly able to believe your
luck. He...he doesn't recognize us! Yay! "Bobby, he not de kind ta typically have a woman willing go
ta his room, nes pas?" HEY! He's doggin' us out, man -- er, um, girl! Can you believe
him?! Bobby bit back the expression of contempt that would have overcome
his new face rather easily if he'd just allowed it to, covering it
with a chuckle and a shrug, as if she'd known that particular bit
about Bobby -- and hadn't minded it. "Why don'tcha have de ice cube escort ya down -- ya eat wit'
us, 'kay?" Again, 'Roberta' only shrugged this time to communicate that she
would be okay with that -- even though she really wouldn't have been. "Bien," he said, that smile never faltering. In a graceful
move, he captured her hand and brought it to his lips, bending in
a suave bow. "Look forward ta seein' ya lata', chere." Roberta stifled a cough of surprise at the motion. Can you BELIEVE
that?! He's hitting on our date! ...Sort of... And with US in the
bed! The NERVE of that guy! It was about this time that Bobby realized he was gonna need some
help -- with the double-talking AND getting his hand back from Remy
before he wretched. "Uh...okay," Roberta said, forcing a smile. "Good. Um... Where Bobby at, anyway?" he asked. Obviously,
she had to be alone -- there wasn't another body present in the bed
and the door to the bathroom was wide open with the light on and no
one inside. "He -- he's not here," she answered a bit lamely, clearing
her throat to excuse whatever anomaly that might be found in her voice,
though there were none. "Wha' -- he jus' leave ya 'ere all by ya'self?" He feigned
a gentle outrage. "Dat ain't no way ta treat a lady, chere --
'specially not one as lovely as you." Ipe. "L-lovely?" Gambit nodded softly. "Oui." And the weirdest thing happened... Roberta began to feel as if she were falling up into Remy's eyes;
they were actually really enchanting, if one took the time to notice
-- or if those eyes made you take notice. Inside, Roberta could feel panic setting in. This damned body
is doin' stuff to us! Roberta couldn't answer -- could only blink up at those strange-weird-alien-outlandish
eyes. "If ya were 'ere wit' Remy, he wouldn't let ya outta his sight,"
he informed the woman before him in his velvety-smooth voice as he
lowered down onto the bed at her side, her hand still held in his. Aie! "H-he'll be back -- I'm sure of it," Roberta managed to
get out, amazed that she didn't sound half as bewildered as she felt. "Are ya?" Remy asked as he brought that hand back up to
his lips again, gently brushing them -- and most likely not
coincidentally, his stubble -- across the knuckles. Roberta's breath caught. Aie, yie, YIE! *Cough* "Yes," she squeaked. "Gotta lotta faith in 'im. How long ya known Bobby, ehn?" Whuh-oh... "A while..." "And ain't nobody ne'er heard o' ya o' seen ya b'fo'?"
he asked softly, never breaking eye contact. Run! Run! Get us outta here! Roberta could only work her lips. Nothing would come out, however.
All she could focus on was those dark, enigmatic eyes -- and those
lips. This close...they were actually very nice. What in the hell are you thinking?! someone yelled out inside
his head. "I...I don't know," came the reply -- on the outside. "Non? Dat's a cryin' shame, chere," Remy responded. "Remy'd
wanna show ya off to de world." She flushed red. "Really? But...I -- I'm not really all that...attractive
or anything -- " "Don' e'er say dat, chere. Ya're beautiful. Dis man, 'ere --
he know somet'ing 'bout beauty. Trus' me on dis, 'kay?" Roberta found she should just couldn't say 'no'. "Wha
-- well, okay." She blushed a deeper shade of demure. Suddenly, a hand was at her face, tracing the line of her jaw as
inhuman eyes watched...fell down to admire chin, throat, collarbone,
shoulders...a revealed breast. "Jus' beautiful," came a soft voice -- a voice that did
NOT belong to the woman lying back on the bed. At those words, Roberta became aware of something distinctly -- odd.
New, too. A tingling. Between her legs. Uh-oh. Oh, no -- NO! Snap out of it, man! Snap OUT of it! But Roberta -- BOBBY -- didn't want to snap out of it -- not with
this peculiar sensation, and this odd fluttering in her stomach, and
those odd eyes staring down at her with heat and fiery irises, and
relish that caused her breath to quicken and chest to rise high with
each inhalation. A hand that was not her own brushed across her breast -- she gasped
softly, eyes slipping shut of their own volition. What the FU -- "Ohhh..." she breathed suddenly, cutting that voice off
like a dead weight dragging down a drowning survivor of a boat wreck
down into the murky deep. Once free, that survivor could swim to shore,
find a piece of wreckage to cling to -- or simply lay back, so to
speak, and tread water. Roberta wanted to tread water with Remy LeBeau -- wanted to lay back
as his hands and eyes roamed about a body that hadn't been there a
few short hours ago, awakening sensations perhaps prematurely, but
necessarily, making her feel things she, as Bobby Drake, never
thought she'd want to experience. You're not missing Willie anymore, ARE you? No answer. Not to him... Hazel eyes came open -- found those weird eyes so much closer now
-- so very close. And those lips parted in such a mischievous smile
-- "Ah -- !" Those hands... Probing, touching --
heedless of the fact that 'Bobby might return', or that someone might
pass by the open door -- "Chere," an accented voice whispered in his ear. And then
a breathy string of French... A skilled hand passed beneath the covers, brushing a breast, over
a flat, taunt belly, fingertips tickling lightly and coercing another
gasp...stroked down over a thigh -- between thighs as they
parted in aching awaiting -- What the hell -- ?! "Yes," she whispered, arching ever so slightly, a leg rising,
her free hand grasping at the sheets beside her -- "Yes..." No! No! "Guess ya don' mind if Bobby come back, neh?" Remy murmured,
a smile in his voice. YEAH! Stop that, ya bastard! Her head began to wag immediately. "No. No," she repeated
vehemently. "Don't stop." NO?! Whaddaya mean 'NO'?! Yes! YES! STOP! "Who said Remy was gonna do somet'ing like dat, ehn?"
He chuckled deliciously as his fingertips neared expectant warmth
-- And Roberta _could_not_WAIT_ for him to finally reach that
place -- that undeniable place that Bobby never thought he'd ever
know from this side, and as Remy came closer and closer still,
she thought she would burst if she wasn't touched where she
needed to be and NOW! -- that she would incinerate on the bed sheets,
lit by flames of yearning frustration and impatience -- "Hurry -- please. Now," she heard herself say from far
away. AGH! NOOO! "Waitin' is one o' de bes' parts chere." "Now..." she insisted in nearly a whimper, beginning to
writhe beneath Remy's ministrations. Snap OUT of it! Remy brushed his lips across a bared throat. "Jus' 'bout dere,"
he whispered as he brought his fingers closer and closer yet -- "Yes..." NO! Are you MAD?! "Yes," she murmured. NO! You're supposed to be saying NO! "Hmm..." A soft, masculine chuckle sent a delightful shiver
up her spine that caused her to arch up again -- and into those dexterous
fingertips. She felt as if she were exploding inside. Oh, no -- "YES!!" "NO! NO! NOOO!" "Bobby! Wake up, boy! Bobby?!" He flailed feebly, his hands swatting at empty air. "S-stop!
No! NO!" he shrieked in his sleep, eyes clenched shut. "Get
away!" Strong hands shook him awake -- caused him to bolt up from sleep
with his fist cocked back and ready to fire -- Green eyes greeted
his wild eyes -- beautiful and concerned green eyes, and white-striped
auburn hair... Rogue. "Ya okay, hon?" Blinking at her, unable to remember how it was that she came to be
in his room and that close to him, he was also unable to answer her
question. "R-Rogue?" he all but gasped, panting. She nodded, looking at him with a weighing glance. "Yeah. How
are ya, sugah?" He looked a bit wild -- almost delirious, the
way he was sheathed with sweat as he was and having been yelling out
in his sleep like he was being chased by some terrifying monstrosity. How am I..? He couldn't answer that, either -- Until recollection slammed into him like a Mack truck -- powerful,
surging, breathtaking, appalling, dizzying recollection. Hazel eyes
flew wide open as his hands flew down to his crotch. "Bobby?! What in the hell are ya doin'?!" Rogue questioned
as she reeled back from what seemed to her to be obscene fondling
of himself. He was, after all, undressed under his blanket, which
she'd gotten a glimpse of as she tried to rouse him from slumber. Bobby hadn't heard a thing she'd said. "Yes!" he cheered
to himself, his eyes slipping closed and his head falling back in
deepest relief as an absolutely silly grin broke out on his face.
"Willie," he mumbled as he felt his missing equipment not
so missing in action anymore. "Willie?!" Rogue breathed in what looked to be horror. Then, Bobby's eyes snapped open, still ignorant of Rogue's bewilderment. He felt his chest. Flat planes of muscle. No breasts. "Aw, damn," he hissed. " -- I said, wha' de hell ya t'ink ya doin', ice cube?!" That voice... That Cajun voice. Bobby whirled, suddenly hyperventilating as he floundered back as
far as he could from the advancing red and black-eyed man, pressing
himself against the wall on that side. "St-stay the hell away
from me, you pervert!" he shouted as he snatched his blanket
to cover himself like a prudish old woman. Remy halted dead in his tracks. "Me? You de one feelin'
ya'self up in front o' a lady," he growled. "ME?! You're the one that -- that..." He hesitated, an
accusing finger hanging in the air. "...That..." He couldn't just TELL him what had happened -- what had gone on in
his head, now could he? Oh, HELL naw! "Wha' Remy do, ehn?" the offended Cajun wondered, folding
his arms as he glared. "Uh..." Bobby glanced at Rogue who was still eyeing him
strangely. "Uh...nothing," he said. "Nothing at all."
He shook his head and cleared his throat, his eyes falling to his
bed covers. That had to be about the WEIRDEST dream I've ever had -- and the
most traumatic... he added with a gulp. "Den, why ya call me a 'pervert', huh? Ain't like Remy in 'ere
'cause he wanna be. Was just passin' by when we 'eard ya yellin' like
a woman -- " A woman?! "Remy, please," Rogue berated, her eyes flashing to his
in a quick admonishing glance. "Cain't ya see he's all shook
up?" She turned back to Bobby. "This ain't got nothin' ta
do with what happened out there in the field with that girl, do it?"
she asked. Meaning the freaky-deak that had smacked him one good over
the head. Bobby, paled, wondering how she'd come to that conclusion -- she
was right, yeah, but still... "N-no," he denied with a vehement shake of his head. "Wh-what
made you think that?" He tried to smile and knew he was
failing miserably at it. But he didn't care. It wasn't like they knew -- that they'd EVER find out, either. About
the dream. "Yeah, Rogue. What did make you think that?" Rogue turned around at the voice. "Jus' wonderin', is all. Ah
mean, after what her powers did ta Storm and how she was usin' 'em
in close proximity ta him, and all..." She left off, letting
Jean fill in the blanks. Bobby had slowly leaned to his right, hardly hearing a word Rogue
had said...and caught sight of Jean leaning against the frame of the
doorway, previously just out of sight behind Remy. In her own green eyes twinkled a comprehension -- a knowing
that made his guts twist. She smirked. <Wild, wasn't it?> Oh. No. Meep. She chuckled in his mind and it danced in her eyes. <You know
you liked it.> He wanted to scream, and he would have, too, if Remy and Rogue --
albeit it, a blinking-rather-dumbly Remy and Rogue -- weren't there
right then. I wanna die. I wanna curl up somewhere and DIE, he moaned
inwardly, his thoughts so clear in his sickly pallor. Jean chuckled aloud this time as she stepped out of the door and
back into the hall. she informed him as she went on her way. The mention of Scott Summers made every shade of color he could claim
to own drain even farther from his skin -- and the thought of Cyclops
being let in on his mortifying dream made him want to faint. Aie, yie, yie! Bobby hated that expression more and more every time he used it. "Wha' de hell is goin' on?" Remy asked for the second time
in as many minutes. Bobby tried to look innocent, his still being pressed up against
the wall and clutching his blankets and that look on his face
notwithstanding. "Uh, nothing. Nothing at all," he repeated
as he chuckled nervously -- such a dead give away that he was lying
through his teeth. "Yep. Looks like nothing to me," Jean added with
a quirk of a crafted eyebrow, her hands stuffing themselves in the
pockets of her jeans as she went on her way. Bobby let his face fall into his hands as if he were going to cry.
"Can you two, like...leave now? Please?" So I can die
in peace? Remy shrugged, no longer really giving a damn what was going on.
"Le's go, chere. Look like he wan' his privacy." Rogue nodded as she stood, still looking at Bobby in that odd way.
"If you gon' be alright--" Bobby waved her away. "I'll be fine." Sooner or later... Remy reached for her as she walked away and she allowed his hand
to come to rest at the small of her back when she neared him. "That
boy got problems," she mumbled when they had gotten out into
the hallway. "Oui -- and dat's sayin' somet'ing if Remy sayin' it,
too." Considering everything he'd gone through as of late --
Antarctica and all. "Ah hear ya." Back in his room, Bobby slowly raked his fingers through his hair,
sighing deeply as he leaned his head back against the wall, and as
he curled his legs up against himself, he all but reveled in the feel
of his nearly-lost 'friend'. God, I just want to forget this EVER
happened. <You are SUCH a bad liar.> JEAN! Quiddit! <What?> she asked innocently. <Just stating the
facts -- Roberta.> A telepathic grin -- an evil
one. ARRGGH! <Ha, ha, ha...>
4
She was now in the safety of her room, but as to the comfort part?
There was very little.
She felt like a stranger on her own lands. She was no longer Ororo
Munroe in body. Inside, she could hear her own voice and her own thoughts
- and then, she looked down upon herself and found herself trapped
within someone else's fleshly confines.
She was not yet used to this body. Walking and moving took more care
than usual. She weighed more and was taller than before. More than
that, she was stronger as well, easily able to overpower herself by
brute force alone were her female self present - which it was not.
Everything seemed alien now - how things felt to the touch, for example.
It was as if she were there in her room for the first time, never
having felt the texture of her bed sheets before, the smoothness of
the oak that made up its frame and the chest at the foot of it. Even
the feel of her own body was strange to her now - not that she'd spent
more time than necessary touching herself...
Usually so very composed, she felt close the edge.
She felt as though she could slip this time, slip right into the
abyss.
She had never faced an adversity such as this. Imprisonment, yes.
Enslavement, yes. Massive and overpowering fear, yes. Great injury,
yes. And powerlessness, too.
But this was different - new.
It wasn't something she could just get used, either, and she feared
that it would never cease to be new - that she would always
feel off-balanced, and never 'used to it.'
Her senses were all feeding her information differently - the feel
of her own hair to her own fingertips was as exotic to her as that
of a woman's she'd never met before. She even thought the smell of
her indoor garden was different, that the sights she took in weren't
the same as they were two days ago, and even her sense of taste would
tell her that what she had once thought was the taste of a peach was
actually something completely conflicting.
And of all the things that were made new once more was the touch
of mother earth upon her.
Remy had reminded her that she hadn't felt that touch in too long
a while - no matter how short of a while it was. It was always supposed
to be there - incessantly so, even.
But it wasn't now.
She felt oddly ... alleviated, freed - yet simultaneously ... alone.
Did not the earth recognize her in spirit if not in body?
No, she decided. She was no longer the daughter of the Earth - she
was now its son.
But she would not be denied her birthright!
She closed her eyes as she stood in the middle of her room, and reached
out for the familiar grasp that always demanded attention lest it
rage out of her control, the reins be snatched from her hands until
however much time it took before she could reclaim them.
Her life - her body - had been irrevocably changed, but she would
be damned if she would lose the only thing that was tangibly
left of Ororo Munroe - the gift to manipulate the weather, to glide
upon the winds, to command thunder and lightening, and be caressed
by cleansing rains.
Where are you? she called out inwardly. I know that you
are still there - you could not have left me, as well! Please, do
not have gone. Please...
It was exhilarating, too, though - the loss. She felt as if she could
rage to her heart's content and not a cloud would flicker with an
electrical charge, not a droplet of rain would fall, and not a gust
of wind would ruffle a lock of hair.
But another part of her would EXPLODE if she did not have
that burden to bear, that blessing to uphold, that honor as an X-Man
to carry.
It was all she had now.
She would not be denied.
"Hear me," she whispered softly, reaching out with all that was inside
her that would be remembered by her mother, the Earth, arms lifting
from her sides and into the air. "Feel my spirit. Know that it is
I, child of the Earth that calls you. Do not reject me now."
She did not order so much as plead - plead - for her rightful
place.
Such an irony.
She had asked for change and she had it - and unhappily. Then, she
was petitioning for something that she should already have, should
never have lost - and all for a half-formed wish that should never
have been caught to breath and made real by voice.
The connection must be there - it has to be. I cannot live
like this - not alone!
"Please. Come back to me - welcome me into your arms again," she
breathed as if she were desirous of a former lover that was hesitant
at accepting her back. "Touch me... Fill me..."
Just when she felt nothing riposting her call, when it seemed
that the connection lie dead and lifeless on the floor before her
- that Mother Earth had indeed rejected her new body as the sum aggregate
of what Ororo Munroe was and would ever be in body and spirit, when
the skies seemed to ignore her as nothing more than a simple human
that would breathe and return to dust in a blink of its existence
-
She felt it.
The RUSH.
A powerful and roaring wind threw open the shutters and flooded in
from the skyward entrance above her head as it coursed to her, enwrapping
her - embracing her. Between her legs, around her waist, and through
her hair, it caressed and stroked her skin - the hesitant lover had
welcomed her return at long last - and lifted her in the air amongst
a delicious cyclone as she threw back her head and laughed and sobbed
in the greatest relief she could recall, her deep voice lost to the
howling windstorm.
A touch.
She felt it deep inside - down deep, could just barely feel it, could
scarcely discern the spark as her powers were ignited, jumpstarted
by her fervent devotion after her conversion had apparently buried
it.
Buried it alive.
And now it pulsed and thumped and grew within as well as without.
The blazing and beautiful colors and hues that were the weather patterns
were lain out before her like so many paints on a palette, there to
be shaped and remade by her and her alone.
Her new appearance had not left her no longer qualified for the job
- it was the within that mattered far more than the without,
a simple truth she had always been aware of, but had had no greater
crisis with until now. She could see it, despite how she'd felt that
her sight had altered somehow, she could see it, and it just
as it'd always been.
"I feel you," she laughed. "I can!" she shouted in her strong male
tones as she was drawn out of her room and into the skies above, too
enrapt to care for her new voice. "I CAN!"
And then it was only her and the storm, beating rain, sleet and snow,
swirling winds and clouds, thunder, lightening - and all at her command
once again, reclaimed.
"You are mine once more!"
And, indeed, it was.
As it had always been.
And she rejoiced for however long she was able.
A loud boom - more like a KAKRATHOOM! shook the windows of
the boathouse.
"What was that?"
"Lightening, I think. Rain, sleet-"
"I know that, Jean. I was wondering why. Sort of sudden, wasn't
it? It was sunny just a minute ago." Scott Summers, also known as
Cyclops of the X-Men, and perhaps more importantly, husband of Jean
Grey-Summers, edged open a slat in the blinds to peer outside at the
sudden thunderclap that had lit up the late dusk outside the window
of their bedroom.
"A bit, but you know we have a resident weather controller on the
premises," she reminded him.
"Do we?" he asked after a short pause.
"Of course. Just because her sex has been changed, it doesn't mean
that's changed, too."
Hearing the words 'sex' and 'changed' in such close proximity and
in reference to Ororo Munroe made his left eyebrow twitch. It didn't
take much to drop the 'ed' off the end of 'changed' and slap the two
words together...
Shaking his head to loose himself of the thought, he said, "We don't
really know that. And Remy did mention that 'Ro wasn't exactly in
touch with her powers."
"Well, we'll see soon enough," his wife told him, as she organized
the last of her items.
Scott sighed and nodded. "I guess." The idea of Ororo being a man
was indeed an odd thing to accept. What would it mean to their relationship
if it were permanent? Would they have a true alpha- male struggle
between them, then? And why was he thinking of that now? It wasn't
important - Ororo's recovery from this was, which had to be
especially difficult for one such as herself.
"Not really, I'm not sure, probably, I have no idea - you're just
weird, yes it is, and again, yes it is."
Scott blinked at her. "Wha'?" So confounded was he, the 't' at the
end of the word never made it to his statement.
She grinned and shook her head. "You'll catch on in a minute - you
usually, do," she told him, confidence of his ability to do so dancing
in her clear voice. "I, on the other hand, have got to get this up
to Ororo. Thanks for the clothes."
"Um ... no problem."
"Actually, you should probably be upset. This just means I'll have
to drag you out shopping with me when I go to the mall to pick up
something for her tomorrow."
He nearly paled. "B-but, why?"
"You wear close to her size, and besides - I like to show you off."
She swatted him on the behind as she passed him, the borrowed clothing
in telekinetic tow. "See you in a bit, okay?"
"What about unstable molecules?"
"Forget the unstable molecules. I haven't been shopping in a while
and you're going. Period."
He sighed. "Fine." When she was gone, that changed to a whispered
"Damn!"
~I heard that, husband.~
He sighed and rolled his eyes. "Sucks being married to a telepath."
~That's not what you were gasping last night.~
Proud leader of the X-Men that he was, he blushed. Furiously.
A telepathic chuckle drifted to him in parting, trailing off to leave
him alone in his abashment.
When she finally lowered herself back to the grounds, her feet touched
solidarity beneath them once more. And she was reminded.
Feet that were hers and not hers sent the sensation to her
mind, the feel of the wind whirling beneath them, and then the woodenness
of the floor of her room.
Different.
It still was all different.
Only the touch of the elements remained unchanged, the feel of it
inside where all was normal - or at least, she could believe
that it was.
With a sigh that seemed to drain away all the comfort she'd found,
she again looked around the attic that was her bedroom with her man's
eyes.
A woman's bedroom.
And she was no longer that, now was she?
She looked down at herself.
No, I most certainly am not.
And she caught sight of the clothing she still wore from the medlab,
now sodden from her reclamation of her mutant abilities and clinging
to her male form, delineating greater muscle mass and masculine curves
as well as other noticeable attributes that caused her to look
away.
I cannot wear this forever, can I?
But what else was there? Everything she had, naturally, fit her as
a woman and nothing else. She had not the size nor type of clothing
to fit one as she was now.
Trying to keep the memory of her most likely having been first noted
as a man in her uniform, of all things - her particularly womanly
uniform, cape and heeled boots, and all - and wondered what would
she wear.
The answer came in the form of knocking at the door.
"Ororo?"
It was Jean.
Jean, who was still a woman after all she'd been through.
Ororo did not answer - she could not. Suddenly, she felt shame
- as if she'd done something wrong when she had not.
"Ororo, it's Jean."
As if I did not know, bubbled up within her too quickly to
be cut off.
"I figured you did," came from the other side of the door.
Ororo immediately flushed as red as one such as she could.
"You remember what happens when you project like that, right?" There
was no anger in her voice, only understanding.
Yes, she sighed. I do. Even still ... she did not raise
the formidable shielding around her mind that she'd been taught to
erect.
"Good. Now, are you going to let me in?"
Not yet fully formed, her next thought was in the negative. She wanted
no one else to see her - not as she was.
"You can't hide forever, Ororo. You have to let someone in.
No recluses allowed on campus, you know."
She makes jokes now? Now?!
"Sorry. You're right." She sighed. "Ororo, I have food and clothing
here. Now, unless you want to go hungry - I know you haven't eaten
in more than a day - and wear those clothes you got from the lab for
however long they'll last, you'll open the door."
Coercion? Now?! Ororo thought more to herself so that
Jean would not hear. But then she looked down at herself again and
was presented with an impasse on a similar level to the one she faced
when she was in dire need of the restroom.
All right, she ceded. But this will be...short.
"Promise," Jean replied with nothing to hint that she felt put off
by Ororo's brusqueness.
Ororo hesitated before she made her way to the door - then forced
herself to continue. Resting her hand on the knob, noting just how
much it wasn't her hand save for skin tone, how the feel of
the brass didn't seem as committed to memory as it'd once been, she
turned it with yet another sigh for her lost femininity.
She pulled it open an inch - then a bit more.
Jean tilted her head to one side to see in and found little more
than a shadow staring back. "Ororo?"
Yes, she psi-whispered as she stepped back into the shadows
and let the door slide open.
Jean entered slowly, not wanting to make Ororo anymore uneasy than
she already was, which she knew was escalated merely by her presence.
Side stepping the door, she closed it behind her with a sweep of her
foot before focusing on her friend who was presently trying not to
shrink into the shadows as a mutual friend of theirs was now able
to do.
In her hands she carried a tray of food, something light that wouldn't
be too much of a problem in getting down: a small tuna salad, bread,
soup, water and juice, and a side of fruit. Beneath the tray was clothing.
All of it she held up with the aid of her TK, of course, for otherwise,
she would have dropped it on the way up the stairs.
The first thing Jean was able to discern was the hint of that familiar
mane of snow-white hair that sat higher than it had before and was
tied back, then those piercing blue eyes - which also now maintained
a higher station than before - and then the depth of the shadows gathered
around her welcomed by the chocolate coating that was her skin.
But that was about all she recognized.
It was like looking at a long-lost brother of the Munroe family that
had unexpectedly turned up out of the blue without word or mention
of where he'd been or even how it was that he could exist.
And a very cute brother, too, she had to admit. Very cute
if the shadows weren't playing tricks with her eyes.
"Ororo?" she called softly. "You don't have to hide from me."
Don't I? she asked herself without thinking to suppress the
question, though she tried with all her might to keep her struggling
emotions to herself.
"No, you don't. We're friends, 'Ro - whatever happens, that'll never
change."
Even if I have?
"Yeah," Jean nodded. "Even still." She lowered her emerald eyes to
the contents in her arms. "You want to give me a hand with this?"
Ororo knew that that was a ploy to draw her out - whatever may have
happened to her, she still retained the keen mind she was born with
... even if it had nearly escaped her not too long ago.
"Please don't be afraid, Ororo. I know this is hard for you and I
would never try to make it any harder. I also know you don't want
pity and that's not what I'm here to give you - only my help. We are
friends."
Even still... She could not help the dread that filled her
eyes and heart at the thought of Jean's fully seeing her ... even
if she also knew that it was unnecessary.
"I ... I understand, Ororo, but if anyone else under this roof knows
about change, it's me, don't you think?"
She couldn't help but admit to the truthfulness of that, even if
Betsy most likely beat out Jean, period, in that category - she was
now inhabiting an entirely different body than the one she'd been
born with. Phoenix had been through a transformation or two in her
day, though, hadn't she? Even if she'd retained the shape of a woman,
she'd still be through much - much that had to have been quite arduous
for her, to put it mildly.
Using her TK, Jean easily set the tray and clothing off to the side
on the floor. Then, looking imploringly into the combination of shadow,
blue eyes, and pale hair, Jean slowly outstretched her hand, palm
up. She said nothing, but let the question lie in her eyes.
Ororo's heart began to pound as she gazed down upon that hand. Part
of her noted the new vantage point - she had to have gained five inches
in height. Another part noted the look in her best female friend's
- her sister's - eyes. So trusting and trustworthy.
Understanding, and - vulnerable? How could that be?
Whatever the reason was, whether Ororo knew that she understood or
not ... it was enough.
Slowly, tentatively, she lifted her hand - and though the sight of
it more than just unnerved her - all but appalled her ... she
reached out of the darkness and gently took hold of something light.
Jean watched, expression unchanging for Ororo's sake, as her hand
fit into Ororo's. Still of slender and graceful digits and smooth
dark skin, it was also a man's, hinting at great strength even though
Ororo made no attempt to demonstrate that. Of course it was a bit
fantastic that that was Ororo's hand now, but she did not shy
away or gasp on sight of it.
On the contrary, she wrapped her smaller hand around it and covered
it with her other one, smiling comfortingly. And when Ororo's worried
eyes fell to their clasping of hands and made the effort of softly
squeezing back, of needing and asking for, and just scantly taking
it from she who had just given her the gift of touch that she needed
so much, Jean took advantage.
Stepping forward and pulling on the hand caught between her own,
before Ororo might be able to reel back in surprise and dismay, Jean
wrapped her arms around the startled new-man, embracing him.
Ororo's heart beat so hard and so fast, she felt as if it would propel
itself through her chest and slam into Jean, thereby doing them both
harm. Arms held away from the redheaded woman clinging to her as if
radioactive material lined her now very muscled arms, she began to
tremble, feeling almost betrayed by the large leap Jean had taken
without warning.
~In case you need me to say it, Ororo, I accept you. Please believe
that,~ she psi-murmured, sending that to her friend in words and
all the necessary - and a few extra - accompanying emotions. ~There
simply is no reason for you to ever doubt that. None.~
Ororo blinked once, then twice ... and slowly, slowly, her arms fell,
encompassed, then closed around Jean, whose head could now only reach
up to her shoulder. She returned the embrace, but it was bittersweet.
Her longer arms wrapped around Jean and then some, far more than her
original arms could, and Jean felt so small to her, now - far shorter
to her than before. She probably outweighed her friend by at least
seventy pounds now.
Even still, it was contact and it was acceptance. Jean Grey-Summers
would not lie to her about that and would not have come to her offering
solace if she did not truly mean to give it.
Jean stroked her back, sending gentle waves of consolation.
Ororo rested her chin in red hair that was almost supernaturally
lustrous by the pale beams of moonlight that reached her head. She
sighed heavily, a blossoming something rising her chest, though
dimmer in comparison to that which had overwhelmed her in the medlab
on her discovery of her new self.
"I..." she whispered so softly, she herself could barely hear it,
and if that alone had to be proof that she'd even spoken - evidence
found by her own ears - then she would scarcely have known she'd said
anything at all. "I ... am so afraid," she finished.
~I know. I know.~ And, of course she did.
They held each other for some time, then slowly pulled apart. Jean
stayed a while. They sat, they talked - and they didn't, using
telepathy where Ororo could not stand to hear her new voice. What
she needed to know most was that at least one person beneath
that roof would not look at her as if she were some oddity to be stared
at, no longer regarded as an equal or as normal went beneath that
roof, which could be done without the spoken word.
And it was.
Jean had brought her several days worth of clothing and Scott was
only so glad to help - though mention of the X-Men's leader need not
have been brought up, for it would only serve to remind Ororo of her
duties as co-leader and what her latest trial would mean to her position
on the team.
She didn't need to think of that just yet - only herself and how
she would go on now that it was found that her transformation was
permanent without that girl there to reverse it.
Ororo sipped at her soup, a bit awkward with the spoon at first,
but quickly catching on. Jean picked at her bread and the tuna salad
Ororo appeared to have no interest in, knowing that eating alone -
like drinking - wasn't always such a good idea.
A measure of comfort could be found with her friend, Ororo now knew,
and was greatly relieved that this was one X-Man - an X-Woman
actually - that she need not hide herself away from ... which was
something she had already specifically known she was in need of. And
while she was at it, Jean tried as best as she could to reassure the
new-man that despite what she thought, there was really no need to
fear ostracism by her teammates even if at that time - to Ororo -
it seemed like the only way they could react.
She was still one of them, whatever her shape. She had a place there
in that house and she always would, even if she were now a 'he'. She
would have the aid and consideration she needed and deserved ... but
at the same time, Jean knew that it was nearly impossible for her
to believe otherwise.
Ororo was a tightly bound person -- her powers gave her little other
choice. She valued her dignity more so than nearly anything else,
and such a thing as her transformation happening to her - HER, to
whom control was an absolute necessity..? It was an outrage, pure
and simple, and with no way to fight her predicament, she was made
to feel powerless.
Ororo and 'powerless' just did not go together.
And it would take time, Jean knew, before Ororo and 'acceptance'
finally did.
After Jean had left her, Ororo's mind wandered aimlessly, futilely
over everything and nothing - but mostly on her current situation
and her inability to do anything about it. During that time, she reached
no conclusions, came to no astounding discovery. Glancing at the door
Jean had just left through, she had a small wish to call her friend
back, to reach out with her mind to reclaim her reassurances, if only
for a little more time... But deciding she really ought to learn to
be alone this way, as she was most likely going to be just that -
alone this way - she turned her eyes elsewhere.
The bowl of soup.
That bowl of soup - that thing ... When trying to use her
spoon to eat her soup - while ignoring the tuna that she wasn't in
the mood for despite her hunger - she'd fumbled more than once. Yes,
she'd caught on rather quickly, but not to the same extent of 'expertise'
she could claim to have with her other hands.
She'd felt like a child as she held that spoon, like a bumbling child--
Out in the wild, as she'd felt when she tried to walk for the first
time.
It occurred to her again how much she might have to relearn
if she were to maintain the level of grace and conduct that she had
always had before ... her change. Things she'd taken for granted,
things that children were taught and had pretty much mastered well
before the time they were half her age.
She'd have to start over, in a sense.
The routines that had been so ... routine ... to her before would
now take actual thought to accomplish. Her hands were not only larger
- they were stronger, the fingers longer. As she turned them over
before her, noting the same exact skin tones as she'd had before,
she was hit again with how different they were to her - strange, even
- despite that similarity.
And then she noticed, as if for the first time the cracked nail polish
on her nails - her broader, manlier-shaped nails that had stretched
her neatly applied double coat of dark red that had matched her lips.
Goddess... She blinked down at those nails, eyes widening
... Nail polish. On a man's hands. HER hands...
And then, she was hit with something else for the first time...
Yes, nail polish on a man's hands was startling - to someone who
wasn't used to seeing it - but, nail polish on her nails...?
Ororo was a man - or physically, at least, where only eyes and ears
and probing hands were the solicitor of proof. Inside, however, she
was anything but. She was very much a woman - with all the
consummate emotions intact - and still very much attracted to men.
That was one of the few things that hadn't changed - along with her
hair, which she didn't even want to get into right then...
What is to become of me, then? she wondered, her face slowly
contorting in frustration and confusion ... and dread. Who am I
now, really? What place do I hold?
No one answered. It was perfectly silent. She was totally alone -
even the voice within had nothing to respond with.
Suddenly, she felt abandoned, lost and adrift with no one to help
her. And no one could, could they? How many times had she found
herself in a similar position? Clueless as how to free herself of
one dilemma or another that trapped her like a small confining cage?
At another time, she might consider a trip to Africa to clear her
mind, but her problem would only follow her there, clinging closer
her to than her shadow. And she'd rather not go back to her homeland
in the body she inhabited now.
Who would recognize her then? Understand her quandary? She'd rather
not have to answer that at the moment. She had more pressing things
to attend to, namely common, ordinary, mundane things whose simplicity
eluded her new hands.
Glaring at the soup and the spoon resting in it, she felt a rising
antagonism heating her from within. It was irrational, yes, but oddly,
it felt right just then as it never had before.
That damnable utensil was what she focused most on, however - not
the soup, or anything else that was thus far being ignored in her
concentration. The soup could be sipped, didn't need the spoon, and
therefore, was independent of the soup. Yes. Independent of the soup
... but it had arrived with the spoon, which made the broth
guilty by association. Yes...
Outside thunder sounded almost eagerly, as if awaiting something
to happen or wondering whether or not to cheer on a horrendously stupid
tangent that could lead up to an outburst of meteorological proportions.
Meanwhile, Ororo was consumed with images of the broth bubbling malcontentedly
as the glass of the bowl increased in temperature by her own hands
- no, by her own eyes, yes... That would be even better - heat
straight from her eyes ... Then the offending object would explode
in a madly delirious cacophony of flying, flower-patterned debris,
soup erupting into the air, the spoon dribbling away in a melted,
misshapen puddle of silver.
Yes...
She wasn't sure how long, exactly, it took before she realized she
was grinning like a beast, teeth revealed in an entranced snarl so
deep that she most like would not have recognized herself were she
female again.
Wh-what... What is the matter with me?! Besides the
obvious, anyway... It is only SOUP, Ororo! Soup! It canNOT mean
you any disrespect! And so what if it did?! It was still only soup!!
She was being irrational - entertaining thoughts of destroying her
food and its accompany flatware. Was she going mad, too? Floundering
under the pressure of it all or was this also a symptom of what had
happened to her, but was only showing up now? She should report this
to Henry?
Her eyes flickered to her salad - she had to stop herself before
she began envisioning detonating tuna and molten fork as garnish.
What was going on?!
What could make her do this? What could make her this ... this ...
this stupid all of a sudden as to think to use her abilities
against side dishes?! What?!
Her still-sharp mind whirled through the possibilities, making sure
to keep her present situation high in her thoughts, lest it be discounted.
The one thing that was different about her was her male body. That
was all. Her mind was still intact. She thought the same, or so she
believed, and felt the same ... Or so she thought ... She'd dealt
with stress before and never had she ever conceived of terrorizing
her sustenance.
She ran long, slender yet manly fingers over her hair ... lightly
scratched, eyes narrowed ... What could it be..? Was she cracking
up? Was that it?
No, no. She shook her head. I do not feel panicked - not
exactly. Jean did much to calm me and the reclamation of my abilities
has heartened me so. It ... It is not that. Just this ... mindless
irritation - rage, even - coming from nowhere when there is no reason
for it, even though it is painfully obvious that it has no place and
would serve little purpose beyond a brief and childish satisfaction
- and the creation of a mess ... A mess which has only now entered
my mind. Why did she just realize, at that moment, that there
would be a mess? Just another thing for her to rant at later, that
would most likely further pique this strange anger that had risen
itself up out of her temperament in what seemed to be a declaration
of its permanent presence as it had decided to become - a prevalent
change in her behavior that would do her nothing but harm and unbecomingness?
And just what the hell did that last sentence mean?
As she let loose a barely inaudible growl of frustration, she glanced
back down at the bowl - that chafing came back in an instant and she
found herself glaring - An oozing puddle - let us see how you would
like that. Unformed and unrecognizable by anyone! Her eyes
shot up and away from the bowl in near panic, breaking the dangerous
stare she'd had building and was now cooling into a light simmer.
She blinked. She could hear her heart pounding in her ears as alarm
sought to claim her faculties.
Oh, no, she breathed in her head. Oh, no, no, no, no...
Could it be? Could it...?
With a shuddering sigh, she slowly nodded yes before she could even
truly form the thought.
It is, she confirmed to herself. There was no time for denial,
here - not now. It is. She'd caught the comparison --
Unformed and recognizable by anyone!' she'd thought. She'd caught
it indeed. She would do onto it and it as had been done onto her -
would cease its tormenting of her by condemning it to her own fate:
transformation. Irrevocable transmutation.
And she had nearly missed that, too.
"Sweet Goddess," she breathed in an odd, detached, yet very real
awe. Eyes widened ever so slightly, fingertips lifting to her lips.
Backing way from the soup - the taunting, aggravating, and belittling
soup and spoon and everything else on the tray before her that once
again inspired her vengeance and reconfirmed her suspicion.
She gulped. Took another breath ... And softly breathed past her
splayed fingers the four syllables that she knew were responsible
for her present petulant plight in an eerily soft tone that chilled
her bones:
"Testosterone."
Outside, lightening crackled in the distance as if to say, 'Ding,
ding, ding! Tell her what - I mean, tell him - him -
I knew it was a 'him' - what he's won!'